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Inläggav Anna Sara » 24 aug 2009 21:38

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Bekantar man sig med sin egen Merkurius-natur kan man förstå en djupare aspekt av "översättningsproblemet". Tycker just denna arketyp/energi är mycket svårare att konfrontera än andra former, har mycket ego här. Tror det enda man kan göra här är att hitta en ödmjukare bild av formen genom sanningen, men då måste man ta ansvar för det:

Mercury’s seemingly up-front, matter-of-fact, and even banal qualities and correspondences represent only the surface appearance of an energetic force that is far more complex than is generally recognized. Through the cognitive network symbolized by Mercury, the other planetary principles partake in a mutually recognizable form of com­munication with one another, especially within the crucible of human consciousness. This plexus of interconnecting pathways of communication facilitates and unites the planetary forces in the microcosm of the human psyche.

In its evolution through various planetary symbols, the Transcendental energy is chan­neled through experiences of identity-separation (yang) and -unification (yin). In a similar fashion, in alchemical symbolism, the final stage of rapport between the yin and yang princi­ples is called the coniunctio: a process that proceeds through various stages of “chemical” separatio and unio, culminating in a union of differentiated qualities within the alchemical vessel, i.e., the psyche.

Just as the alchemists were well versed in astrological lore and borrowed freely from astrological principles to enhance their philosophical-allegorical understanding of pro­cesses of spiritual transformation, alchemical symbolism has, in turn, influenced and enhanced our understanding of the astrological symbols of transformation. In our present study, this transformation of energy is symbolically imagined as one assisted by the mediating force of Mercury.

In alchemical literature, which preserved and refined astrological thought and tradition, Mercury is sometimes referred to by his Greek appellation, “Hermes,” or by the Latin “Mercurius.”1 The alchemical retort was referred to as the vas Hermeti­cum or vessel of Hermes-Mercury. In the Mercurial Fountain illustrated in the Rosarium philosophorum (1550), the basin of the fountain is adorned with six stars, signifying the other celestial spheres (including Sun and Moon) that were visible to astronomers during the Middle Ages. The planetary principles are “contained in Mercurius,” whose personification symbolizes “the unity of the seven planets.”2 This alludes to the unify­ing function of the hermaphroditic Mercury, who symbolized the gathering, sorting, and ordering function in the alchemical process of the separation and unification of psy­chic elements.



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In alchemy, these are usually represented as metals which, when sepa­rated from their corrupt amalgams or base forms, are transformed into symbolic “gold.” This is a philosophical or spiritual gold, representing an enlight­ened, spiritualized, or individuated consciousness. (Hence, Gerhard Dorn, a philosophi­cally oriented alchemist of the sixteenth century, would write: “The gold we seek is not the common gold.”) Therefore, in the ratio­nal, cognitive qualities symbolized by Hermes-Mercury, the various levels of Logos (spirit) / Eros (soul) dualism are unified. The “golden germ” (the potential for higher consciousness) is sealed within the vas Hermeticum and “heated.”

As the living vessel of Hermes-Mercurius, a human being has the potential for vitalizing (heating) and elevating (sublimatio) consciousness. It is explicitly the vessel of Hermes that serves as the agent of unification and that is a mediator of the various opposing principles (or metals) that are eventually brought into harmony or rapport.

The union of antagonistic elements is referred to with a terminology that is explicitly astrological. Throughout the alchemical literature, Mercury plays a central role in combining opposing principles of solar and lunar consciousness. Just as we have four key elements (originally: moist, dry, hot and cold; these correspond to water, air, fire and earth) and seven astro­nomical bodies (the seven that were known to antiquity) at the basis of all astrological thought, Jung writes that the “synthesis of the four [moist, dry, cold, warm] was one of the main preoccupations of alchemy, as was ... the synthesis of the seven.” In one alchemical text, Hermes-Mercury speaks to the Sun: “I cause to come out to thee the spirits of thy brethren [the planets], O Sun, and I make them for thee a crown the like of which was never seen; and I cause thee and them to be within me, and I will make thy kingdom vigorous.”3 Jung goes on to explain that the above “refers to the synthesis of the planets or metals with the sun.”

Here, Mercury performs the active (yang) role of causing planetary spirits to “come out” to the Sun (i.e., to appear to and to unite with consciousness). In addition, their unifi­cation is metaphorically portrayed as a crown: a symbol of soulful union (yin) and of dis­criminating spiritual consciousness (yang). The various planetary qualities are united through the intercession of Mercury, and this union results in a genera­tion of special powers, which are symbolized by a crown. Therefore, the individuated seeker attains an elevated form of consciousness, i.e., this is an internal, spiritual, and soulful result, rather than a merely material one, as Mercury-Hermes states: “I cause thee and them to be within me.” Finally, Mercury enables the “kingdom” (the unique realm of transformed consciousness) to be made “vigorous,” i.e., full of life. As with all authentic individuation processes, the result is an immediate one, directly experienced in everyday life.

Elsewhere in alchemical literature, we find other examples of the Mer­cury-Hermes role being described as a special process of union. “The ‘centre’ unites the four [elements] and the seven [planets] into one. The unifying agent is the spirit Mercurius.” Jung adds that the “idea of Mercury as a peacemaker, the mediator between the warring elements and producer of unity, probably goes back to Ephesians 2:13ff”:


Mercurius is conceived as “spiritual blood,” on the analogy of the blood of Christ. In Ephesians those who are separated “are brought near in the blood of Christ.” He makes the two one and has broken down the dividing wall “in his flesh.” Caro (flesh) is a synonym for the prima materia [the elemental material which is destined for alchemical transformation] and hence for Mercurius. The “one” is a “new man.” He reconciles the two “in one body,” an idea which is figuratively represented in alchemy as the two-headed hermaphro­dite. The two have one spirit, in alchemy they have one soul.
                 

The “spiritual blood” unites “those who are separated.” This notion of sep­aration alludes to a one-sided and extreme form of (yang) consciousness: the experience of life as alienating; the experience of the social collective as an aggregate of distinct, separate, unrelated beings (i.e., the nihilistic point of view). The Savior attempts to alter this condition with his blood. He can make “the two one,” because he has “broken down the dividing wall ‘in his flesh’.” In other words, he has unified the opposites internally: he is individuated. He is whole.
Like the Savior, Mercurius personifies a cosmic duality. And like Christ, he is con­ceived of as “spiritual / blood” [yang / yin]. The cold, dry, immaterial spirit (yang) is united with a hot moist matter (yin), the latter symbolized by blood, which is typically associated with human feeling, warmth, and even love (i.e., blood is the fluid of the heart).4  

Most importantly, Mercury is imagined as a central con­tainer within which the opposing planetary forces are brought together. As hermaphrodite, Mercury personifies a conjunction of spirit and soul; of animus and anima; of Sol and Luna. Jung writes that the “circle and the Hermetic vessel are one and the same, with the result that the mandala [a sacred or “magic” circle] ... corresponds to the vessel of transformation.” Therefore, Mercury plays a special role in synthesizing planetary forces within the astrological vessel of humanity, i.e., the circle of the zodiac and its idio­syncratic expression as a horoscope or “birth chart.” Mercurius is the “true hermaphroditic Adam and Microcosm,”5 for, in receiving and transmitting the alternating male and female planetary qualities, Mercury partakes of a dualistic flow of energy. In the words of the alchemical philosopher, Gerhard Dorn:

Our Mercurius is therefore that same [Microcosm], who contains within him the perfections, virtues, and powers of Sol [in the dual sense of sun and gold], and who goes through the streets [vicos] and houses of all the planets, and in his regeneration has obtained the power of Above and Below, wherefore he is to be likened to their marriage, as is evident from the white [yin/soul] and the red [yang/ spirit; my brackets] that are conjoined in him. The sages have affirmed in their wisdom that all creatures are to be brought to one united sub­stance.6

Mercurius effects and personifies the union of opposites on a microcosmic human level. The oppositional tensions of the planets are resolved and integrated through a mediation of Mercurial discrimination, analysis, and comprehension: the cru­cial elements of consciousness that are astrologically symbolized by this planet.

Therefore, it should be clear that the alchemical Mercury possesses qualities that are synonymous with the astrological Mercury. This is especially so concerning symbols that reflect an evolution of consciousness. As the symbol of cognition and rational comprehension, Mercury provides a means of bridging the tension of psycho­logical and emotional polarities, all of which are personified by the various planetary forms. Through Mercurius, the spiritual (or solar) consciousness can rationally communicate with the lunar (or soulful) dimension of consciousness. Mercurius is imagined (i.e., symbol­ized) as an agent of unification, because through Mercury the needs of one side of exist­ence (e.g., Logos-spirit-yang) are made comprehensible to the other side of existence (e.g., Eros-soul-yin). Mercury piques our curiosity, forms the question: Why?7 and then searches for a way of balancing the dualism inherent in consciousness.

Mercury symbolizes the fundamental pathways and elements of communication (e.g., the nervous system; psychic functions promoting cognition, communication, and comprehension). Alchemically, this is symbolized by Mercury’s role as a unifying agent of chemical properties: a force that allows various “met­als” or “chemicals” to enter into rapport with one another. Mercurius is envisioned as standing between Sol and Luna–the fundamental forms of Logos and Eros–and provid­ing, through receptive awareness and active transmission of thought, a mediating function that leads to continual philosophic and spiritual (i.e., psychic) growth. For the more literally inclined alchemists, this was imagined as a mere chemical interaction; for the alchemical philosophers, the “heavenly marriage”8 was an internal, philosophical process, yet one that simultaneously attempted to transform “metals” or chemicals through ritualistic enactments (i.e., repeated chemical “experiments”).

The special alchemical relationship between Sun and Mercury is of significance for our own purely astrological purposes, as our rational functions and faculties (Mercury) are directly related to the ego’s ability (Sun) to process information and to build and organize an effective ego-complex structure. In an apt metaphor expressed through astronomical fact, Mercury is “the planet closest to the Sun.”9 Gather­ing, sorting, processing; seeking, receiving, and transmitting information, Mercury directs a singular focus upon each detail–one at a time–whether in the process of transmitting that information (e.g., giving a lecture) or receiving it (e.g., listening raptly to a speaker). Without this essential Mercurial function, it would be difficult for the ego (Sun) to comprehend or express itself. Without a properly functioning Mercury, the ego-complex would be overwhelmed by details that it could neither sort through nor process effec­tively. Without Mercury’s discriminating ability to analyze and present data, ego-expression is subject to a void of Mercury: a babbling incoherence; a “scat­ter”-brained inconsistency.

Mercurius provokes the first stage of union between the yin and yang planetary principles (i.e., Sun and Moon). In alchemy, this is expressed as the marriage of Sol (spirit) and Luna (soul). “As the little star near the sun, he [Mercurius] is the child of sun and moon,”10 i.e., the consciousness born of their union. Mercury assists in creating addi­tional unions between the other yang / yin planetary couples, i.e., the lat­ter ontological stages of Mars-Venus; Saturn-Jupiter; and (in modern times) Pluto-Neptune. The alchemists conceived of Mercurius as the “spiritus vegetativus, a living spirit, whose nature it is to run through all the houses of the planets, i.e., the entire Zodiac.” According to Jung, “We could just as well say through the entire horoscope” or “through all the characterological components of the personality.” In the archetypal “Journey through the Planetary Houses,”11 Mercury corresponds to the cognitive function that attempts a comprehensive synthesis of planetary symbolism. Mercury’s rapid transit of the natal chart–comprising a restless seeking and questioning–further portrays its continual and dynamic influence.

Mercury’s role in uniting the masculine and feminine ener­gies reflects a character trait of the alchemical Mercurius: a hermaphrodite who is “fittingly called ‘duplex’, both active and passive. The ‘ascending’, active part of him is called Sol, and it is only through this that the passive part can be perceived. (The passive part therefore bears the name of Luna, because she borrows her light from the sun.” Mercury’s solar consciousness is intimately linked to a lunar consciousness, as “it is only through this that the passive part can be perceived” or made conscious.12  “Luna secretes the dew or sap of life. ‘This Luna is the sap of the water of life, which is hidden in Mercurius’.”13 Thus, within the unifying mediator of Mercurius–a hermaphrodite who contains Sol and Luna (the red and the white)–there is a deep-seated bilateral capacity to grasp, comprehend, and experience the seemingly oppo­sitional psychic forces. Through their marriage in the Mercurial waters (of receptive awareness and active analytical comprehension), a new consciousness is born: the alchemical unio mentalis. Mercurius is “masculine and feminine and at the same time the child born of their union.”14

Mercurius as quicksilver represents an adaptable and changeable energy: one with a peculiar ability to shift into a variety of plan­etary forms, “mimicking,” “animating,” and “quickening” the celestial spheres as it travels through their realms. This process is symbolized by the peregrinus microcosmus or “wandering microcosm”: Mercury represented in a voyage or “odyssey in search of wholeness.”15 (Astrologically, it is symbolized by Mercury’s Tran­scendental “couplings” with the other planets; by natal aspects; or by dynamic, transiting aspects.)

Through Mercury’s search for an essential ingredient in spiritual truth (yang); union based on empathic under­standing (yin); and understanding enhanced by the “unifying / force of language” (yin-Eros / yang-Logos). An animating force that “quickens” the planetary ener­gies by means of its relentless absorption and transmission of truth, Mercury stimu­lates the flow of psychic energy and directs information gleaned from each celestial realm (or form of consciousness). Again, through its “freewheel­ing” interaction between each astrological stage of yin and yang, Mer­cury partakes of an energetic dualism that is expressed in its hermaphroditic nature. The felt awareness (Eros-soul) and rational grasp (Logos-spirit) of the various planetary principles (especially as experienced in the microcosm of human consciousness) is the immediate result of Mercury’s quest to obtain a truth partaking of multiple realities by adapting to each of them: absorbing, reflecting, and qualifying their natures; and creating the formal means of expressing such realities through sign, symbol, language, schemata, diagram, blueprint etc.
Mercury and its “higher octave,” Uranus, signify two different yet closely related psychic functions. Mercury represents a dynamic search for the elements that compose the multiple facets of consciousness (i.e., “thought forms”), while the unexpected reversals and shocking reformations expressed through Uranus signify a search for a higher order: a more sophisticated synthesis and expression of consciousness (i.e., the reformation of thought). The restlessness of Mercury (seeking to comprehend itself) and the Ura­nian tendency to restructure energy forms (a self-regulation of psychic energy, expressed through the dynamic reversals of its extreme forms of expression) exemplify the transhuman ori­gins and qualities of these energy complexes. A “thought” which suddenly appears “out of the blue” (Mercury’s color) partakes of a transpersonal or archetypal pattern and origin. Likewise, Uranian intuitions that appear “out of nowhere” (the immaterial nature of Uranian energy) are expressions of a suprarational, transpersonal con­sciousness. In this sense, Uranus and Mercury (whose astrological symbols or “glyphs” are shaped like antennae) are planetary “receptors” of higher states of consciousness: receptors capable of transmitting the subtlest expressions of spirit and soul.

In accord with ancient astrological and occult traditions, the alchemists invoked the spirit Mercurius as a mediating agent in their quest to render form to such philosophic inquiry. Jung writes that the “union of alchemical opposites formed a ‘correspondence’ to the unio mentalis that took place simultaneously in the mind of man, and not only in man but in God.”16 Mercury’s special mental role is sug­gested here. In the mental union simultaneously experienced by God and man, Mercury is linked to the Divine realm (human cog­nition based on a transpersonal, archetypal, divine pattern; Mercury as a receptor that “steps down” the energy of higher planetary forms of consciousness). Here Jung is again referring to the writings of Gerhard Dorn, who states: “We conclude that meditative philosophy consists in the overcoming of the body [the base instincts and unconscious nature] by mental union [unio mentalis] ... [and] that He may be one in All.”17 According to Jung, “The goal of the [alchemical] procedure is the unio mentalis, the attainment of full knowledge of the heights and depths of one’s own charac­ter.”18 Jung further theorized that the “unio mentalis, the interior oneness which today we call individuation, he [Dorn] conceived as a psychic equilibrium of opposites ‘in the over­coming of the body’, a state of equanimity transcending the body’s affectivity and instinc­tuality. The spirit (animus), which is to unite with the soul, he called a “spiracle” [spiraculum] of eternal life’, a sort of ‘window into eternity’ (Leibniz), whereas the soul is an organ of the spirit and the body an instrument of the soul.”

This final occult goal–the union of opposites upon a newfound (or higher) level of awareness–is a process realized in a special manner through an intercession of the hermaphroditic, unifying form of Mercury. Therefore, Mercurius is conceived as “many-sided, change­able”; “the ‘twin’, made of ‘two natures’, or ‘two substances’”; “the ‘giant of twofold sub­stance’”; the “winged and wingless” dragon; the “spirit and soul of the bodies”; composed of elements that are “dry and earthy” and “moist and viscous”; “passive” and “active”; and even “good and evil.” Through the “united double nature”20 of the hermaph­rodite, “Mercurius duplex” presages the final goal: the union of psychic oppo­sites, the mysterium coniunctionis.

As a force that both unites opposing principles and symbolizes their presence in the dualistic tendencies of consciousness, Mercury–by standing in between and uniting–forms a triune structural dynamic and is often symbolized as such. Hermes-Mer­curius is referred to as “All and Thrice One” (omnia solus et ter unus); “triple in name, one in essence” (triplex in nomine, unus in esse); the “three-headed Mercurius” or “three-headed Hermes” (Hermes tricephalus); the “union of three” (triunus); the triune “Mercu­rial Fountain” (fons Mercurialis); “a three-headed snake” (serpens Mercurialis); and “tri­ple natured–masculine, feminine, and divine.”21 This triune form alludes to Mercury’s role in processes of separation (into complementary plane­tary pairs, such as Mars and Venus) and unification (the psychic integration of the Mars and Venus principles). Interpreted psychologically, Mercury represents a function that integrates rational and nonrational aspects of consciousness.

Improper manifestation of the energy:

Alchemical lore warns of a “darker” aspect of Mercury. Besides its role as spir­itual unifier, Mercurius duplex is conceived as duplicitous; shifty; wily; poisonous (“a spreading poison that has brought death to many”); “a child of chaos”; “many sided, changeable, and deceitful”; “inconstant”; “good and evil”; “dark and light”; “visible and invisible”; “coarse and fine”; and related (through Saturn) to the devil. Since Mercury takes on the qualities of the planets that it serves to link, in its close proximity to the various planetary principles, Mercury may be contaminated or inflated with either the yin or the yang planetary elements. The “darkness” or “coarseness” of one side of the duality indicates that one of the Mercurial functions has now become obscured and is operating unconsciously.

This is reflected in the horoscope when Mercury is portrayed as a hyperac­tive planet. For example, in its contact with Saturn, Mercury may “serve” Saturn by encouraging emotional constraint and the fear of change. “Understanding” may suddenly shift into “excluding” other viewpoints, perspectives, or emotional realities that would lend greater expansiveness or wholeness to the soul (especially the soulful qualities corresponding to Saturn’s complimentary yin form, Jupiter). In its rigid adherence to Saturnian principles (structure, order, discipline, the “laws of limitation,” and the utilization of those laws in effecting achievements), Mercury excludes other realities by force­fully proclaiming its belief in the already analyzed and categorized details that constitute an established Saturnian point of view. The complimentary Jupiterian impulse to expand beyond established borders of reality (and to expand the collective frontiers of the soul) is here usurped by a fixed belief in the limits of the “already known”: the logically deducible realm of material reality. In defending this rigid, Saturnian posi­tion, the Mercurial “light of reason” is transformed into a dark, obscuring cloud: one of opaque absolutism.

Conversely, by adhering to or becoming contaminated with the Jupiterian impulse, the wandering curiosity of Mercury will expand beyond its ability to maintain focus, following an endlessly widening, tangential trail through a morass of ideas and concepts that all seem linked in some maddeningly inflated and endless fashion. This will lead to a fixation on Jupiterian “facts,” especially those pertaining to philosophical, religious, ethical, or other forms of the “codified wisdom of the ages”–yet one lacking a truly soulful awareness of such matters.23

In merg­ing with Mars, Mercury will give voice to such forceful, opinionated and heated exchanges that the “separation and differentiation of identity” principle symbolized by Mars will be excessively extolled, with the result that it backfires and causes alienation, separa­tion, and misunderstandings with others.

Overactive, one-sided contacts with yin planets such as Venus may lead to com­pulsive communications concerning romantic obsessions or opinionated exchanges regarding aesthetic beliefs. Instead of an intimate, soulful experience, a fixed notion concerning the nature of love (e.g., romance viewed in a hyperrational manner) will block anything other than a superficial exchange of intimacy.

In Mercury’s contamination by Neptune, ideas and opinions concerning a mystic dimension of the soul will inhibit a deeper, authentic spiritual experience. Here Mercury will insist upon communicating something about the vague, obscure, or indefinite nature of the Neptunian experience, yet an overriding focus upon the significance of the word (or in some other graphic notation, such as the symbol) will eclipse an essential Neptunian soulfulness: the merging with and dissolution into the anima mundi or world soul.

With Pluto, the attempt to comprehend the essential nature of something and to use that knowledge to reshape or transform that essen­tial nature lends the Mercury-Pluto contamination a particularly terrifying power. In applying a willful analysis to a person or a thing (e.g., a myopic view of how something should be transformed and a concern over the “dictatorial control” one will have upon the transformed person, place or thing), the Mercury-Pluto contaminated native is obstructing his own depth transformation potential.

In every one-sided Mercury-planet contamination, the word or rational form obscures the truth it attempts to shape or articulate. In the effort to express its triune structural nature, Mercury has grasped too tightly upon one planetary principle to the detriment of the opposing principle. The latter then falls into an unconscious darkness (the unrealized, unvitalized part of life) and will later emerge only under special circumstances. (Only an enlightened consciousness can redeem it.) In all the Mercury-planet contaminations, the philosophical Mercury (mercurius philosophicus) or spiritual Mercury (mercurius non vulgaris) is bogged down by the common or crude Mercury (mercurius vulgaris; mercurius crudus). Instead of lending fluency of expression to the ineffable experiences of spirit and soul, Mercury is overly attached (earthbound or “concretized”) to some aspect of the form of communication itself. This is reflected in the manner of expression (e.g., Plutonian willfulness; Jupiterian expansiveness; Venusian sensuality; Martian force) or in the words, symbols, or language systems that are overvalued and that serve as a substitute for the realities they are meant to convey. Rather than the word serving to clarify and enhance our experience of the mystery of life, the word usurps the place of the mystery itself.

When Mercury is psychologically unintegrated, the traditional astrological literature warns of a scatter-brained, unfocused native; one who cannot ratio­nally ascertain his place in the larger scheme of things. Such a person may have difficulty in making decisions; forming critical judgments; communicating clearly and objectively; comprehending elabo­rate concepts; retaining details, facts, and figures; or making simple logical deductions. For such a native, two essential elements are lacking:

Existential conditions, such as a lack of educational opportunities, may have dampened the native’s interest in such Mercurial pursuits. This, in turn, may interfere with the urge to absorb, reflect, comprehend, communicate, or plan in an orderly, rational manner. This impasse will force Mercury to operate primarily on an unconscious level. Mercurius “duplex” then becomes duplicitous or diabolical. This is the trickster aspect of Mercury, which will reveal itself through an inner shiftiness and an underhanded unconsciousness. This means that one “hand” of Mercury is overgrasping or is overidentified with one of the (yin or yang) planetary principles, to the detriment of the complementary principle. Instead of functioning as a mediator and forming, on a higher level, a transcendent union (as reflected in his hermaphroditic nature), here Mercury is overidentified with one form of con­sciousness at the expense of another.

If, for example, the native is overidentified with the yin side of the equation, the yang-oriented impulses (symbolized by Sun, Mars, Saturn, or Pluto) are then trapped and operate primarily unconsciously. The need to redeem this one-sided (or partially uncon­scious) Mercury is expressed in the alchemical notion of the “Freeing of Mer­cury,”24 illustrated in the Grimm fairy tale, “The Spirit in a Bottle”: a story of Mercurius hermetically sealed in a glass bottle. If Mercury is not capable of func­tioning as a mediator between planetary energies, the native will experience difficulty in finding his “Logos”: a formal means of communicating with clarity. Yang thought-forms will become blocked and will emerge only through dreams, unex­pressed longings, the “subtext” (or subliminal meaning) behind “surface” communications, or the acting out of the unconscious self (e.g., hysterical expressions). The yang consciousness will only be expressed symptomatically, through snide remarks; double entendres; aggressive or awkward body “language” etc. Essentially, the right hand does not know what the left hand is doing. In between stands Mercury, who says one thing but is secretly thinking another. He may pursue his unconscious agendas by expressing himself in “half-thought” imag­inings and in “unthinking” remarks (e.g., insults). For the native who is unaware of his “duplex,” situations seem to “figure themselves out” or to reach “untoward con­clusions” (i.e., an inability to consciously plan for and reach a proper conclusion).

When Mercury’s powers of comprehension and rational deduction have fallen this far into the realm of diabolic unconsciousness,25 a further problem arises in the native’s ability to believe in the self-regulating nature of the Mercury energy. For a native so far removed from the ability to tune in to his own thoughts, the fear is that the “wheel will have to be reinvented”: that a thinking process must be created from scratch. The thought process is, however, largely autonomous; we receive thoughts (generated as they are from within the overall psyche) just as much as we can be said to create them. Yet instead of teasing out or channeling thought in this intuitive manner, the native may despair that he must work through every word, every detail, every aspect of communication in order to effectively utilize the Mercury complex. Of course, nothing could be further from the truth, as “channeling Mercury” into the conscious realm is far different from controlling each of his frenetic movements. Indeed, for every human function (i.e., for each planetary principle) the conscious mind must work with a largely autonomous, instinctive, and intuitive process that proceeds along by itself, directed here and there by conscious­ness yet certainly not invented by the ego or created from scratch. We may seek to formulate a thought and, in the process of properly “listening” (being mentally receptive), a thought coalesces in a manner that is largely involuntary and instinctive: generated from within the psyche and reformulated within consciousness.

The same holds true no matter which planet is “unintegrated.” The native must engender a belief in the autonomous reality of the psychic function involved (e.g., the reality of love [Venus]; the reality of the “expansive philosophical mind” [Jupiter] etc.). One must cultivate receptivity to the presence of the energy in question. (And this requires an appropriately introverted atti­tude.) Besides instilling a belief in such energetic potentials, one must develop a positive point of view regarding the use of such energies. Since unintegrated energy is largely blocked from conscious expression, this means it has been experienced mostly in a negative form. Once psychic energy has been redeemed, its beneficial effects are enormous, yet this is often difficult for the native to imagine, since things pushed into the unconscious are often viewed only negatively.

Transcendental potential:

Relocation to the Transcendental Mercury line offers the native opportuni­ties in which this function finds a formal means of expression. This will occur through encoun­ters with those who have evolved a Mercury principle within themselves to such an extent that the “unattractive” or “unconscious” aspects of Mercury (the “dark,” “coarse,” and “poisonous” dimensions) are transformed into a more positive, creative form of expression. For instance, someone with an unintegrated Mercury who is not verbally oriented may, under this location, expe­rience language as a tool that can be tailored to suit his needs in fur­thering relationships with others, rather than as something that leads to experiences of intellectual intimidation, alienation, or separation. In relocations in a foreign country, the attempt to learn a new language26 will stimulate such underutilized mental functions. This, in turn, will stimulate other functions, such as comprehending ideas and formulating concepts.
Under this location, the ability to rely on the autonomous expression of Mercury is enhanced. This may be coupled with a positive external experience, such as encounters with those who personify creative aspects of Mercury (e.g., personally meaningful and relaxed communication instead of impersonal, irrelevant, intimidating discourse). Mercury as mercurius philosophicus may be personified as the curious seeker who, by receiv­ing and transmitting knowledge, furthers the evolution of others by teaching eternal truths and ideas. Here Mercury is functioning as a mediating agent between the Eros-yin and Logos-yang principles, communi­cating to each their mutual needs and articulating their realities in a manner further­ing growth and enhancing comprehension. When functioning properly, Mercury lends form to the unknown and helps to shape the otherwise elusive language of human cogni­tion and consciousness.

The possibility of actualizing creative, philosophical aspects of Mercury in a Transcendental locale is exemplified by the prolific and visionary writings of Jules Verne [with Secondary Transcendental Uranus]; the acclaimed literary achievements of William Butler Yeats; the direct, simple clarity of the novelist Jack London; and the “prodigal genius” who gave intellectual form to an eclectic variety of ideas, Nikola Tesla. In each of these examples, Mercury found a significant formal expression in the world-at-large. Under the Transcendental location, instead of haphazard or disjointed expressions of mental energy, Mercury coa­lesces into forms that communicate knowledge, enhance comprehension, and further the quest for greater understanding.


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Keynote phrases for Mercury:

•The animating energy behind forms of communication.
•Traditionally, Mercury is hermaphroditic and contains qualities that derive from active (yang) and receptive (yin) energies. Mercury unites these opposing tendencies, especially in the role of transmitting (yang) and receiving (yin) information.
•Cognitive functions that determine communication and more advanced intellectual abilities.
•Intellectual (rather than philosophic [Jupiter] or divinely intuited [Uranus]) communica­tion.
•The ability to learn and refine skills.
•Education, especially elementary education.
•The “automatic pilot” aspect of cognitive experience, especially concerning the performance of tasks that rely on the smooth functioning of previously learned motor skills.
•Physiological structures in the brain and nervous system that facilitate communication.
•In Indian astrology, Mercury corresponds to “matters pertaining to learning.”
•The yin and yang functions of reception, comprehension, and expression of information.
•Everything that facilitates communication and that leads to an understanding of the self- and soul experience.






Jag upplever väldigt stora kommunikationsproblem mellan Jimmy och mig t.ex, vars Merkurius står i kvaradtur (90 gr) till varandra. Det känns som jag på ett komplext sätt "bär" alla mina minnen (historia) i Merkuriusfunktions (som jag har i Stenbocken!) rörelse.

Det känns ju som man upprepar sig hela tiden, och investerar så mycket dold kraft/traditions och översittar-komplex i denna del av en själv. Det är en formula tagen ur ens känsla av struktur, jag tror det är en kollaps. Massiviteten och det starka egot i det här glömst ofta bort, det är liksom uråldrigt och hävdar sig kyligt individualistiskt. Man är utsatt för skador på detta område genom svårigheten att kanalisera och förändra genuint inte bara inbillat. Skulle säga att det är mitt starkaste försvar -eftersom det är "värdet mig" eller "bilden mig", känslan av auktoritet och personliga möjligheter/styrkor. Det är liksom en slags rå-autism.

Ska nu läsa igenom allting, tror jag gjort det förut.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 24 aug 2009 22:19

Jag måste konfrontera det här seriöst. Och, det liksom "är" det i sig själv -Merkuriusformerna, det är vad auktoritet i denna formen innerst inne är -konkretiseringen av framgången, och den tillfredstälellse och mogna frihet som den antagligen åstakommer. Alltså det är väldigt centraliserat, och jag vill vara rå/ren enegri -vilket Plutos identitetskris söker.


Snälla hjälp mig. Försök förstå dig själv bortom alla yttre tecken.



Stora problem rör ofta Merkurius och Saturnus arketyper i konflikt -som ni förstår. Leta gärna efter exempel på detta i relatering och i världen t.ex. så kommer ni förstå vad jag syftar på..




Om Saturnus (som min Merkurius i Stenbocken styr, samt 3e huset står i Stenbocken, styrs alltså av Saturnus, som är exakt på dess angel/kusp -som hanterar Vattumanplaneterna: -att komma "ifrån ingenstans", genom Neptunus: [i behov av] andlig insikt) -som även är min "favorit" att analysera:

Transcendental Saturn

Eternity is in love with the productions of time.
To create a little flower is the labor of ages.
Prisons are built with stones of Law, Brothels with bricks of religion.
–William Blake, The Proverbs of Hell.

Nature does not manifest her laws bit by bit, an inch of gravitation today and another inch tomorrow. No, every law is complete. There is no evolution in law at all. It is given once and forever … There may be a hundred thousand laws and man may know only a few today. We discover them–that is all.
–Swami Vivekananda, from a lecture given in San Francisco in 1900.

Core meaning:

Saturn rules the systole or contraction of elemental energy, cor­responding to the notion of a shrinking, imploding universe. It symbolizes the crystallization of energy into specific, material forms. Saturn stands in direct polarity to Jupiter’s dias­tolic energy: the phenomenon of an expanding universe and the spread and repli­cation of life forms. While Jupiter rules the domination of the life force over matter, Saturn rules the opposite principle: the dominance of physical matter over an animate but ephemeral consciousness. Yet, these two opposing principles work in unison and depend on each other to achieve mutual expres­sion. While Saturn organizes Jupiter’s energy, Jupiter animates the soul of mere matter. Saturn permits Jupiter’s “higher consciousness” a means of incar­nating into durable, visible, material forms. It “fixes” the ever-expanding tendency of Jupiter into a specific shape, permitting its physical expression and structure, while Jupiter infuses mere matter with an immaterial consciousness and meaning. Saturn provides a structure through which Jupiter expresses a visionary consciousness.

Saturn portrays the cosmic “law of limitation,”1 e.g., the limits imposed on the individual in the form of collectively agreed upon rules and socially accepted norms of behavior. It symbolizes the “just so” nature of reality: that water freezes at precisely thirty-two degrees Fahrenheit; that light travels at 299,792.5 kilome­ters per second; that argon has an atomic weight of 39.948. (It’s “just so.”)2 These immutable natural laws govern our universe. Saturn rules the myste­rious process through which reality is “fixed” at such predetermined levels.

As experienced in everyday life, the Saturn principle is often felt to be unfairly restrictive or even depressing in its tendency to organize, regulate, and structure. This is so especially during adolescence: a period marked by fluid states of con­sciousness and by emotional upheaval and growth. During this time, when we prefer to express ourselves in manners that challenge socially condoned constraints, Sat­urn’s positive function may be misunderstood. (This is especially the case when a younger generation is confronting older people who have unconsciously identified with Saturn and who act out its rigid forms of authoritarianism.) As we age, however, Saturn consciousness may become more clearly focused and its larger purposes may be better understood. Unless it is properly integrated, however, it will pose an obstacle to the expansion of personality, now favoring a fixed social role (persona) or a form of self-identity that is no longer open to development. As discussed in the previous chapter (see “Transcendental Jupiter”), the archetypal figure of the senex (Old Man)3 personifies this rigid, authoritarian aspect of Saturn.

Improper manifestation of the energy:

•When Saturn is hyperactive, it is experienced as a fearsome, claustrophobic sense of “harsh reality”: a fear of being “orphaned” in a “soulless” space and time (e.g., “separation anxiety”).
• When Saturn is hypoactive, it produces a sense of not “fitting in” to concrete reality: a lack of discipline; an inability to structure (especially the structured use of time and space); or a lack of “apprenticeship” in learning the “skills of daily living” (e.g., archetypally sym­bolized as an “absentee father”).


The evolution of yang consciousness begins with the Sun’s development of the self as an “ego-identity”; continues with the Martian interactive self as a dynamic (or aggressive) interplay with others; and culminates with Saturn’s realignment of the personality to suit the needs of the social-collective organization, which is composed of many other “selves.” If one appropriately expresses Saturn’s energy, one is properly related to the collective through the ability to effectively produce work and to accomplish tasks that fulfill broader social needs or that maintain institutions or organizations.

When inappropriately expressed, the demands of the larger society (which may condone only narrow, limited expressions of the identity) will eclipse the personal needs of the self (Sun). Therefore, the self is not allowed a proper, healthy expression.

Because Saturn represents a channeling of energy into socially productive tasks, we must examine the abstract notion of the society itself (especially as it functions as a censor and control mechanism) in order to understand the dangers represented by a mismanaged Saturn energy. The “eclipsing” of all that is idiosyncratic about the self is one of the primary dangers of an overactive Saturn principle (in a personal horoscope or in the horoscope of a nation). An unquestioning belief in authority or in behavior based on rigid notions of “acceptable,” sta­tus quo lifestyles will result. For example, in late twentieth-century North Korea or in Chairman Mao’s China, we have examples of societies that were dominated by overbearing authority figures who continually emphasized collective needs over those of the individual (the latter was even character­ized as the “cult of the individual”). Self-identity (Sun) was usurped by a collective self (Saturn) to the extent that the notion of collectivity as something composed of individuals almost becomes heretical. Certain aspects of American culture in the 1950s also reflected this phenomenon. This period exemplified challenges for individuals throughout the world. It was symbolized by the square between Saturn and Pluto in the mid-1950s (an angle of separation of 90 degrees), leading to the Saturn / Pluto keynote: “social institutions / dominated by ‘invisible’ control-figures who willfully exert mass-manipulation through fear tactics” and through “institutionally maintained social / surveillance techniques” (Saturn / Pluto).

When someone is overidentified with the persona or social mask, we may assume that Saturn has run amuck and has usurped the proper functioning of the individual self. The persona is related to the Ascendant4 or “rising sign” in the horoscope, which represents a personally tailored and meaningful expression of persona. For example, our “profes­sional mask” or “work persona” is forged through a personal decision to pursue a particular profession: ideally, one aligned with our aspirations, talents, abilities, and goals. This is different from a distorted self-expression that results from an inappropriate or socially imposed (Saturn) persona. When the state usurps an individual’s decision-making process and imposes a role that runs against the grain of the personal self or that severely inhibits self-expression, then the mask or persona is pressing into the face of the personality and distorting it. As the scholar Joseph Campbell pointed out, this results in the unhappy faces that we see all around us, exemplifying Saturn’s usurpation of the personal soul.5

Many societies continue to maintain excessive institutional control-mechanisms. These are personified by so-called “beneficent” authority-figures who, nonetheless, ruin the lives of innovative culture bearers who are no longer permitted to make unique contributions to society. Whether in the role of rigidly programmed authorities or in the form of authoritarian governmental institutions, when such control forces are empowered by planetary transits (e.g., the above-men­tioned Pluto-Saturn square) then the analysis of personal astrological patterns no longer suffices to answer questions pertaining to such widespread social problems. The social collective is then exerting a force over the personal life that distorts the individual’s “true face,” i.e., the appropriate expression of the horoscope or “planetary portrait.”

This reflects an aggregate result of generations of those who have remained unconsciously identified with Saturn and who have maintained a dispropor­tionate belief in authoritarian control over personal life. Then an awareness of Saturn’s appropriate role in individual life is lacking, and it needs to be cultivated in the society-at-large.
(For example, the knowledge that fixed cosmic laws provide a practical means of individual growth and challenge one to greater accomplishment, ultimately providing stepping-stones that lead to concrete means of self-liberation.)

Symbolically speaking, it is for this reason that Saturn precedes neighboring Uranus, the ruler of individual freedom and liberation. By working through Saturn’s laws and by channeling Saturn’s consciousness into everyday life, we learn to gradually transcend the limits of a “fixed” reality. Through the effective structuring of our time, through the informed manipulation of matter, we actualize a real accom­plishment: one that strengthens character and that effects positive, tangible results in the lives of others (i.e., the society-at-large).
Conversely, an unconscious identification with Saturn leads to a myopic focus on the “work, discipline, and hardship” quality of this energy, to the extent that these become goals in and of themselves and result in the exclusion of other planetary principles. When this occurs, such restrictive, life-limiting patterns are elevated to a sacrosanct level. A crypto-religious approach to duty, sacrifice, and organization will result in a distorted view of material reality.

For example, Saturn may usurp the spiritual impulse of Neptune, resulting in a “spiritualizing of matter”: a belief in work as the highest function of mankind. Or some other planetary principle, which no longer functions properly because of Saturn’s general usurpation, will cryptically manifest (e.g., “philosophizing about” (Jupiter) discipline or “romanticizing” (Venus) hardship). This cryptic, subliminal functioning represents the distorted expression of one planetary energy through the dominating lens of another. It occurs when a single function usurps the general psychic energy available for the other functions. When this occurs, eventually there will be a revolution or reversal (Uranus) of libido that leads to extreme shifts of behavior, as the psyche furtively attempts to energetically realign itself. (See my essay, “Transcendental Uranus.”)

Transcendental potential:

While the restrictive quality of Saturn (with its emphasis on fixity, law, duty, and responsibility) will generate fear in those who have not properly inte­grated it, working consciously with Saturn results in dramatically shifting one’s perspective so that a more positive view of the energy comes into focus. For example, if one has already experienced the imprisoning effect that results from a lack of Saturn’s discipline, organization, and planning, then a reassessment of one’s relationship to the energy will provide one with an ability to restructure life and to actualize one’s potential. Effectively manag­ing a social role and achieving goals in a realistic manner are keynotes that are catalyzed through a conscious integration of the Saturn principle. Saturn rules the impulse to “sit down and get things done,” especially something that has an impact on the broader society.

Relocation to a foreign land may force the issue of “fitting in” (a fundamental keynote) or may render the notion of ‘responsibility” as being something desirable, as the perceived “dreariness” of Saturn’s “realistic, day-to-day, routine” quality is now balanced by the exotic experience of encountering an unknown set of social conditions and mores. In this sense, we are given the ability to start afresh with Saturn, to experience a new approach to structuring our day, enduring hardship, and reaping a reward.

Under the Transcendental Saturn locale, we may make contact with those who assist us in developing self-discipline or in realistically planning and structuring daily life. A properly integrated Saturn will enhance professional advancement and lead to a collective recognition of achievement. We may also develop positive relationships with authority figures (particularly through pro­fessional contacts), and such encounters will “humanize” the Saturnian energy, in the sense that developing a relationship with authority will transform the foreboding image of Saturn into something more humanly approachable and real. In turn, this will enhance one’s ability to realize inner authority and control over one’s life.


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Keynote phrases for Saturn:

•Understanding and working with the “laws of limitations.” Using such laws to actualize goals and adapt to reality.
•The ability to crystallize or “make real” a potential form.
• In its most sophisticated form, Saturn is the magician who incarnates beauty (Venus), inspiration (Jupiter), intuition (Uranus), vision (Neptune) etc., into the three-dimensional construct that we collectively refer to as reality.
•The image of God as a cornerstone. The notion of creation as a blueprint. The concept of relationship as fulfilling responsibility. The goal of action as accomplishment. The chan­neling of energy into discipline and socially productive work.
•The accumulation and accretion of yang energy into physical matter.
•The progressive evolution of yang, unfolding from an interactive self-identity (Mars) to a collective spirit expressed in the social organism (Sat­urn).
•In Indian astrology, Saturn corresponds to “prudence, frugality, self-control, loyalty and steadfastness.”7
•Yang expressed as collective identity and collective self.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 24 aug 2009 22:22

Inget händer liksom bara genom att posta några dokument utan att göra en analys -därför frågar jag om er hjälp, precis som jag ger er rådet själva. Jag KAN egentligen inte göra projekt själv, det är liksom utan kärna, desorinterat. Jag måste ha en strukturerad motivation för missionen, för att ge den mer energi/ljus. Alltså jag menar -det är därför jag kommer hit med så rena saker -jag är kollektiv/opersonlig, och vill inte "dra in" någon i något -utan bara förhöja och fördjupa "alltet" av vad vi integrerar i, jag försöker bara få er att fatta att detta är så som det ser ut -det finns inget att fly ifrån.


Vi "pratar om samma saker", vi försöker förstå oss själva, och jag erbjuder er "djupet" eller konfrontationen/substansens moder/fader -läraren. Det är lite meningslöst att förstå sig själv om man inte förstår var man kommer ifrån, det blir väldigt .."orättvist".




Det här är mina villkor.


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Alltså jag har en "ultimat" stark eller konkretiserad Saturnus-energi, som uttrycker sig i Merkurius funktion (som är 3e huset). Vad kan jag göra? Fattar att detta "hjälp mig" (Neptunus) är ett tecken på min kris (Saturnus är ansvar/mognad) eftersom det är så imploderat-autistiskt -något annat kanske behövs först, just genom Neptunus (som är droger bl a). Jag bär det här hela tiden och försöker förstå -men jag måste utgå ifrån det jag utgår ifrån, om man säger så.

Min karma handlar även om det här -då min södra nod i 10e huset (Saturnus/Stenbockens arketyp) är i Jungfrun (Merkurius) -och den står i 3e huset (Merkurius/Tvillingen).

Alltså min personliga upplevelse av det här är att det är väldigt extremt -något jag försöker fly (Neptunus) ifrån, eftersom jag bara hittar etiketter/arketyper att förstå detta med.





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Alltså jag är fast i en "bild-identitet". Som en avbild av min egen intellektuella struktur/tro (Merkurius). Det blir väldigt instabilt, och man känner sig "fångad" -och samtidigt med "ansvaret över" "illusionsverkligheten" -eftersom man inte kan härleda, eller mejsla in en djupare andlig betydelse -det andra, alltså Gud. Man är lite orealistisk tror jag, man tar sig själv på allvar tror man -utan att "komma i kontakt" med "sig själv" -eftersom aktiviteten ligger synkron. En slags "navigerande autism" -som memorerar/imiterar, utan att vara med på andra sidan.

Jag söker inte bara att "beskriva känslor" -då är det hela meningslöst; auktioriteten I DET HÄR -ÄR mina känslor. Vilka bara kan "komma till uttryck" -genom mina intentioner investerade i en "torr sanning" -min eller vår potential till liv/kreativt uttryck. Min tro är ju självmedveten -en känsla av erfarenhet/liv. Det här är alltså en POLARISERANDE kraft; ur-förmedling, som bara kan uppgå genuint i skapelsen för att kunna ta del av sin mening, som frihet.


Jag liksom "vet" hela tiden att alla mina mer lösa uttryck, förslag och flexibel idéverksamhet bara är prostitution, löjliga försök att nå ande, vill konstruera mig som ett flöde.

Det här är den totala hjälplösheten -och det ÄR i energin som jag pekar ut. Samtidigt i ett så starkt äkta självförtroende -men, på andra sidan verkligheten, vilket leder till tvivlande.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 24 aug 2009 22:49

Vem är jag? VAD är det som har kallats för "bubblan"?


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Jag har kunnat RELATERA eller med ett annat ord: TRO, på de här avbildningarna av tillvaron och mening, redan innan jag hittade astrologin, som jag tog till mig som ett potentiellt skönhetssvar, genom min integrering. Så inget jävla bullshit... Hur kan jag bli ärligare? Fattar ni hur svårt för mig det är att BEVISA MITT LIV -för det är det jag gör (!) eller försöker göra, i dubbel bemärkelse -ni och jag. Jag kanske har glömt vad det är jag söker och inte är redo för att förlora min identitet -det är för att det finns ingen jävla mening här. Jag har en mening, ett känslomässigt andligt studerande genom min vraktillvaro -det gör mig lite "oförutsägbar", då jag bär allting osynligt.. Samtidigt är jag envis, för jag ser ett starkt äventyr här, en rolig upplevelse, när jag kommit såhär långt -jag vill förstå själv, och lyckas. Problemet är att det inte finns någon lärare med känsla, det finns inget att utgå ifrån, vilket gör min historia till en illusion där omvärldens auktoriteter bryter ner mitt minne inför deras tomma mallar. Det är därför jag "hatar verkligheten", det finns inget "genuint spel"/kontrakt, allt är i den kollektiva fantasin upplöst/förvirrat/kaotiskt -i och för sig sviker jag inte den världen heller, eftersom jag starkt känner för intensiteten i intet, söker i min massivitet ett subtilt svar eller uttryck på komplexiteten -jag vill känna djupet i de mentala känslornas sanningar, då det här blir ett skådespel -det är friheten.

Jag lever i en total motsats till den jag är.



Vad händer när (vilket är ofrånkomligt) jag dör, hur kommer jag SE på det här "arbetet"/det gamla jaget då? Det är bara vad jag kan BLI. Jag känner inte speciellt stor kärlek för "slutets slut" (eftersom jag verkligen gör det, och håller mig på distans), jag vill nästan ta över gudomligheten av personliga skäl och känslor -övergångarna vill jag till viss del stanna i, jag vill vara med om allt istället för att ständigt vilja komma någonstans. Upplever kärleken så tragisk, man får aldrig nog, det finns ingen vila som inte måste fråga. Därför är denna form helt meningslöst -men ändå är jag kvar, kanske pga, då allt söker en reflektion på kärlek, det akuta ögonblicket -trygghet. En jävla illusion. Men jag tycker ändå jag är lat, jag har bara sådan panik för att förlora allt -okej, visst, det är det som är meningen: "allt" är återskapandet -men det måste finnas ett "resultat" av framgången först så man kan återförenas med Gud, man måste veta vem man är.








Känns.. -numera- som om när jag skriver om det här, mina behov, mitt arbete.. Neptunus (slutet) har tagit över och smält ner allt mycket mer.. de senaste åren mer och mer... När jag skriver och pratar om det känns det inte riktigt akut ändå.. Det är mer som om jag pratar om något "som kunde hänt DÅ".. Och det kanske är något jag kommer kunna uppleva, när jag förstår att det är sant -jag BEHÖVER inte ens ROLLEN i "ansvar för mänskligheten" för då ger jag bort mig själv och lurar mig själv målfokuserat -mitt hjärta vill vara ändå friare; sig själv, fullt ut.


Om vi tänker på det förflutna och utvecklingessteget framåt. Den södra noden resp den norra nöden, väldigt olika när det gäller identitet.. och vill bestämma över varandra ungefär (noderna handlar om något som måste balanseras; inkarnationens rymd av "här" och "där"):

Förfluten mening med liv: Jungfrun/Tvillingen -"inom" Stenbocken [samhällstjänst] -"som" husfunktionerna 8 och 11 -alienation & invadering, samt maktmissbruk som man skakar av sig


Nytt strävande: Fiskarna/Lejonet  -"inom" Kräftan [andlig kärna/rötter] -genom maximalt självuttryck


Helt olika: men de slås ihop i Tvillingen-Stenbocken igen (Sat-Nep hus 3), vilket blir Jungfruns död -som jag börjar förstå; det är jag helt och hållet i osynlighet som upplevs som "samhället". Jugnfrun är bl a skuld, och analys. Mental bild/renhet (även tvång) = Jungfrun.

Aha, nu förstår jag..... för jag har ibland kommit ikontakt med Stenbocks-Merkurius (styr hus 8; egodöd/dolda andelar/kontrakt, & hus 11 = "mänsklighetens tankar"/struktur -att bli accepterad/älskad av en generation/värld) i sig själv...

Samtidigt är "Jungfru-noden" min "personlighet" i en slags ömdjukhet som man inte kan förneka, och därför innebär det en struktur/en plats/form -ett resultat (Saturnus)





Jag är precis som alla andra -det är i grunden DET jag vill TALA UT OM. Jag är i enhet med allt. Jag har aldrig kommit i kontakt med "mänsklighetens kärna" -jag tror jag är "något annat" (extremt stark känsla) -jag känner mig som ett mentalt begrepp och förstår därför inte mina känslor, det känns peverst -det krossar det mentala begrepp jag försöker försvara. Mentalt begrepp/ansvar = hus 10 (södra nod); Jungfrun (bild). Känslor = hus 4 (norra nod); Fiskarna (allt/osynlighet). Det är exakt så.

Hus 11 = kollektivet; genom hus 8 = dold andel, deras resurs av mig (psykdocka).

Jag vill uppleva KÄRNANS romantik med just kollektivet -verklighetens rejäla/fina form. Mental renhet. Liksom, förbi naiviteten -som bara är den energi som skapar en "helhetskampagn" för det här; en sanning om oss -genom mig (5e-hus-Fiskarna; går genom alla) -men unik/personlig, i den romantiska drömmen/friheten "bort ifrån" (Jupiter).



Jag är med andra ord en dålig människa, eftersom jag ser mig själv så klart så kan jag defininera det, kommer inte undan i en annan livsstil.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 24 aug 2009 23:58

Haha.

En sån jävla idiot jag och ni också är. Men jag kan ju i alla fall erkänna det, för vad är liksom det efterlämnade intrycket här?

Vad ska jag göra? Knäppa med fingrarna? Jag har uppnått tillfredställelsen (Jupiter = studier, Oxen = personliga/njutning, Månen = miljö) i att skala av mig illusioner, och ta reda på vem jag är -med "Guds hand över mig", för att provocera (Vattumannen) -istället, för ja, vad annars hade varit alternativet? HAHAHA.


Som "tur" (Jupiter) är ligger Jupiter-Månen i SJUNDE huset!


Arketypen Jupiter och nionde huset (styrs av Månen) och sjunde huset är kändisskap. Jupiter är "att sprida ordet" -sjunde är offentligheten. Månen är känslovärlden -"sann (Jupiter) miljö".

Genom Venus (Oxeplaneten) i Vattumannen (excentrisk provokation, asexuell, mentalt galenskap) -i tredje huset (ordets konst!!!!) -i aspekt till Pluto i första huset/närvaron, och Mars i Oxen (allvarligt sexuell sexualitet -kroppens integrering i resurserna) -som vill DÖ (Pluto) -tas om hand om av sig själv.


Jag har alltså INGEN MENING med mitt liv -och det är något jag "prioriterat" eller hur jag ska beskriva det.. "jag ville inte vara en idiot".. "det är inte vad det handlar om, vad det ser ut att vara".. Jag själv, jag själv, jag själv = ni; kollektivet. Nej jag tror inte det blir så, friends. Det här är bara min kreativa konst -är det så katastrofalt illa/bra? Jo, för det är vem jag är (Pluto/Skorpionen) -ett gravt psykfall, som lurat "hela" sig själv -tänk om jag hade blivit medveten om detta tidigare så jag slapp det ofrivlliga spelandet, och kunde ta saker på allvar -nej, DETTA var det enda jag vill veta, jag har helt uppriktigt, igen kontakt med det. Hm -det förstår jag då, genom alla hus 7-planeter, och Venus som även styr huset i fråga; är PROJICERING; genom min analys/jakt -som Plutoenegrin summerar, utan att förstå.

Sanningen är att jag inte är speciellt intresserad av någonting.

Jag har inte hittat det jag vill skratta åt och känner av naturliga anledningar skuld.


Hur kan vi omformulera frågan? "Vad jag ska göra" är meningslöst, för jag gör ju redan någonting och det går inte att "komma ifrån" sig själv. "Vem är jag" är en död fantasi, uttjatat för längesen. Hmm.. hur kan jag på bästa sätt omformulera frågan? Vad vill DU fråga MIG -kanske är detta bättre? Eftersom det kommer närmare sanningen om mina projektioner"/andelar utanför mig" i begrepp. Jag är "iskall"/avskalad, ohel i känslorna -förutom i emotionerna, som dödar känslorna eller blåser upp dem till det smärtsamma dramat.


Varför befinner jag mig här? Vem är denna nävaro? Varför skulle det ha "med mig" att göra, när det är alla andra som möter och defininerar denna nävaro? HELT ÄRLIGT. Jag frågar dig NU -ok? Vad har vi kommit fram till? "Har" -okej andra hållet; vilken är den slutsats vi är påväg mot?

Problem 2. Detta är ett luftslott -hur blir vi värdiga? "Vem" har ansvar för att HANTERA detta -om inte jag själv? Men då får ni ge mig ett svar -VEM är DET HÄR?!


Jag förnekar er inte i ett spel och säger att jag inte vill höra vad ni säger -för ni kan ha rätt; OM ni möter mig, ja. Annars vet ni ju inte vem jag är utan står fortfarande i frågeställning -själva. Beripligt?

Det är som om vi är 3 år. I det mentala ansvaret -potentialen utav ärlighet.


Okej, visst. Jag glömde bort att påminna er om att det är jag som "känner kärleken inför kollektivet och mänskligheten" i mitt "stora behov" utav upplösningens enhet, och "det sig själv" -här kan jag kanske minnas min existens, komma i kontakt med mig själv. "Någon" -där.



Några som vill vara med -eller ska jag lura er ännu mer bara för att bevisa att jag är helt naket avskalat ärlig?


I brist på utveckling får jag aldrig uppmärksamhet och känner ingenting. Varför hänger jag kvar i det här -och tror att denna föreställning är det enda jag kan ge er, och det enda ni vill åt -är jag helt galen? Jag skojar inte: att myten ska förvandlas till mer onåbara idéer är det den sortens "frihet" jag söker? Låt mig då istället uttrycka dessa idéer som alltid är en och samma sak.


Jag har en mental/personlig ängslighet inför att födas i min kvinnlighet/sexualitet -speciellt eftersom jag är rädd för att vara unik, alltså det är en fysisk rädsla, eftersom jag tidigre blivit missförstådd. Jag "går aldrig över", tar "aldrig steget" -det finns inget här, utan jag modifierar bara bilden/sanningen ännu mer, eftersom jag inte vill vara något annat, än mig själv. Jag upplever mig som ganska storsint, jag tänker inte bara på "en liten del" av mig själv. Jag måste kunna få rum för något bättre/högre, mer avancerat -jag försöker bara skapa ett "överlevande". Jag vill i stort sett sammansmälta mig med slumpen pga mitt frihetsuttryck, för att uttrycka det jag redan vet.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 25 aug 2009 00:50

Fattar ni inte att ni inte kan göra såhär -även om det här är den person som ni känner som Anna Sara?


Fattar ni inte att ni inte kan förneka NUET? Fattar ni inte att "dem andra" inte har något att "komma med" -pga en lek; ett uttryck som ska få er att se er själva som en del i en "balans" av något?


VEM är DETTA? Vi börjar om helt och hållet. Närvaro.

Här finns det något att förstå, bara man tar reda på det. Jag kan liksom inte "prata om något annat" men pga vår komplexitet och era behov tvingas jag anpassa min envishet -men nu skiter jag i det där självet?

Kan ni inte relatera till nuet utan att kontrollera alla andra människor -utanför er själva som små ikoner/brickor? Hur ska ni öht komma över hjärnskadan?

Jag vill inte ha några undaflykter eller något "placerat". Det är uppbrunnet och kommer brinna.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 25 aug 2009 00:52

Jag vill veta vilka ni är. Men släng bort den chansen om det känns i alla fall "hyffsat".

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 25 aug 2009 01:18

Känner att jag har tappat min "människobild" utmed upplevelsen av mina nedergångar.

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Inläggav Anna Sara » 25 aug 2009 01:28

Förlåt. Vänta lite nu..

Varsegod att ta del av det här, och lär er. Det är det ENDA jag kan säga, och påminn mig om att inte spela offret.

Okej? Ja jag kan ju ändå inte tvinga er. Det handlar bara om er själva. Om oss själva, osv. Det är bara är så att jag hamnat här nu i min karmakappa.


Måste transformera min överkompenserande rollgestalting/verklighet nu, bortåt ifrån sina egna fingrar och tår.


Har inte så mycket mer att säga.


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